for spring break i traveled to kansas. . . i was a passenger on a total of 4 flights. . . 2 of which were at night. . . i was intrigued by the way cities. . . towns. . . homes. . . highways looked from that altitude. . . chicago, washington dc and other large cities looked like small white dots floating. . . clusters of lights look like they’re hovering… incapable of seeing the outline of its massive size because the night is so black. neighborhoods that are far from the cities seem to be only a stones throw apart. . . cars that are traveling at high rates of speed on highways don’t move. . . cities and towns create ocean liners on a black, endless sea. . .
Caretta Caretta February 20, 2009
If I was to be reincarnated after death. . .
I would be a loggerhead sea turtle.
They. . .
live in the ocean
live to be over 150 years old
are internationally protected
only come to shore to give birth
lay about 130 eggs in one night
but. . . only a few of the hatchlings survive
simply remember. . . February 14, 2009
decorating baby cakes with mom in grandma’s apron
madi playing in the snow
hot tea, blankets, and a book on a snowy day
madi sleeping in a ball at the foot of my bed
singing and dancing in the car with alicia
walking along oak island beach collecting shells
a baby’s smile
giving a present
being silly with alicia and mom
newly washed sheets
scarves and mittens
sleeping naked in the summer
an ocean breeze
mom’s pumpkin roll
i wonder. . . February 13, 2009
what it would be like to live in another country.
do dogs think in words?
what it would be like to be homeless.
how many times a day do i blink?
why do i bite my nails?
why am i addicted to chapstick, aveeno lotion and washing my hands?
is it true that 1 out of 4 people are depressed?
how many words i read a minute.
why am i so impulsive?
is it true that everyone is connected by 6 people?
why do i lose so much hair in the shower?
why do i love ufc and action packed movies?
why can’t i watch romance movies or read romance novels?
will i be a good mother… no… a great mother?
why i’m never content with my hair.
how my life would be if my dad had never left.
where i would be if i didn’t have my mother to pick me up everytime i fall.
why i have a hard time showing my emotions to people.
why i feel that i’m never good enough.
how many people die a day?
is heaven really there?
would i have been a hippie if i lived in the 60’s?
will the economy get better?
will i always be a bridesmaid and never a bride?
how alicia deals with dad.
how some people sleep at night.
why i have the dreams i do.
how the accident didn’t kill me.
what people really think of me.
if i died, how many people would come to the funeral.
do madi’s tumors hurt her?
why spooky bites his collar.
do i snore when i sleep?
why do i only like perfumes that smell fruity?
how someone can not have a conscience.
how many lies i’ve told in my life.
what it would be like to live in NYC.
will i be a successful attorney some day?
why dogs’ feet smell like fritos?